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Plane Rides Home

Well, it's been an adventure to say the least. Beginning Sunday Morning I began to dread the plane rides home. 

The first flight was crappy. I felt crappy I mean. I made my self stay awake for it though. It was only an hour so it wasn't' worth sleeping. When we arrived in the airport I was escorted down a ramp and under terminals and took a whole round about way to meet everyone else. It was kinda scary yet pretty cool at the same time. It took a while for us to convey the message that we wanted to hang onto the wheelchair until the next flight. When we finally did, the manger(idk what of) helped us to find a place to eat. We ended up eating at the same place we ate on the way to Thailand. I had a waffle with chocolate syrup. I think I pretty much ate the most food of the week on Sunday! (Jane you should be proud!) 

  -side note of what I ate Sunday: 1 Tim tam, a little bit of a "donut",  a smoothie (from smoothie Blues!), a bagel, a chicken sandwich, and a waffle! Plus I drank Gallons of water!!

Anyways, after dinner it was time to bunker down. I had planned on brushing my teeth and stopping to get some water bottles and snacks, but that's not what happened. (Don't worry I had gotten a few snacks in Chiang Mai and I had a water bottle that I kept refilling.) Rather I got out of the wheelchair, sat, layed down, and fell asleep. Well sorta. It was a weird sleep. I woke up to Stephine and Morgan pulling my blanket away to try to get me up. As fast as I stood, I sat down in that wheelchair feeling VERY dizzy. I also had a really bad headache. But I feel as if that's the new norm. 

 We headed to "check in", went through secerity and customs, and then walked (or was wheeled) to the gate. (C5) We waited there a bit. I walked around and brushed my teeth, washed my face, and just refreshed. It was nice. Then Stephine and I boared the plane. First, again. During the flight Hailey was in our row. It was nice. Stephine slept through take off. Hailey read. And I drank. I made my self have 4 cups of water before allowing myself to go to sleep. When I fell asleep I was pretty much out the whole ride. Although Stephine woke me up to drink some more water and eat. I really wasn't feeling the chicken so I started a cliff bar, had a piece of pineapple and bread. After I web back to sleep untill we landed. 

It. Was pretty stressful landing in Japan. We had 40 minutes until out plane to Seattle took off. And Stephine and I  had to be the last ones off the plane. We did it though. I didn't get to board first because I wasn't there, but Stephine and I did cut the line. This flight we weren't next to eachother. So it was nervous. I asked Katie G if she would switch seats with me so I could sit next to Maddi but behind Stephine. It worked for a while. I was feelig super duper dizzy during take off so I just shut my eyes. After the seatbelt light went off Maddi got up to talk to Texas, so I got up to pee. Unfortunatly there was a line to the closest toilet. Because I wasn't "really okay" I just sat on the floor while I waited. Katie D was sitting in the isle middle seat of the last row, and Liz, Isabell, Kimmi, and Aledia were in the last two rows by the windows. I chatted with all of them. FINALLY, it was my turn to pee. But as soon as I walked in the toilet I had the feeling that I was going to puke. I thought since I was able to fight that feeling throughout the week with Jane, I could do it again. So, I peed. As I was washing my hands I just couldn't fight it, and I puked. Yep in an airplane toilet. Pretty Gross! Don't worry I held onto the wall and sink so I never touched the toilet. But yea. I tried to pull it off all cool when I walked back to my seat to ask Maddi where Read was, but when she asked "Why?" I kinda started tearing up. She told me I should go sit in the back until he came incase I felt puky again. So I kinda just asked Katie D if I could switch seats with her so I was closer to the toilet if I had to puke. Gotta love Katie! She's the best! She switched her isle seat with some extra leg room and next to and adorable little Girl, to a middle seat next to a heavier set guy. She's the best!! 

  So after settling, I slept. I tried to sleep away the pukiness. I woke up after food had been pasted out. I never got a meal, but I did get ice cream. So I ate that. Read came over to check on me. I was doing alright. About 15 minutes later I started feelig sucky so I got up to go pee. I ended up puking up my ice cream up too! Ugh! So right now, I'm sticking to LOTS of water. 

 I am trying to give sleeping a little bit of a break because everytime I wake up My headache is worse and my eyes biter me more. So right now I'm good. Well good enough. I watched Monsters Inc. At one point the little girl next to me slide her sleeping head on my shoulder for a few minutes. She really is adorable. I think she's about 6. After the movie I got up to go potty again. Guess what! No puking!!! Yay! Althought My boda is still dehydrating faster because I still have diarrhea. (aren't you glad you are reading this?? The only reason I'm including this is to remind my self how cruddy I feel So I never forget to drink water on a trip again.)  

But yea, so that kinda brings me to now. Typing this, as this little girl is sleeping on me again. (her dad? Is sleeping too, so he has no idea. I mean I don't care anyways.) I guess it's kinda creepy but I took a few selfies! I'm posting them even tho I look kinda creepy! 

This is how I was tring to sleep before. 

Reunited with Most Goodbye to others

(this post is kinda rambled but deal with it... It is MY blog) 

I'm really going to miss it here. I love Chiang Mai! I feel like I'd be able to live here for a few months. I truly love it.

 I wish I didn't have to miss out on ENP. I also wish Jane didn't miss out on ENP for a week along with missing out on getting to know the EE2 kids. But I am happy I got to know her well. She's really cool...and incredibly smart. This past week I've grown to know her more then just a loop teacher. She's  a mentor to me. I'm inspired by so much she's done. And she's given me so much life advise and everything. I've shared a lot with her. More then just a mentor she also a friend. I trust her, a lot. It usually takes me a while to trust someone with just about everything. Jane has taught me so much this past week, but that's to be talked about in a different post. Jane's gonna make a really good mom one day. I mean she took really good care of me. She wasn't overly annoying like most people are when you are sick. She also was usually able to read if I was "lying"  about being "okay enough". (by lying I mean she was able to tell if I was pushing my self to much (another thing I learned from her)). But yea, Jane is AWSOME! I'm really gonna miss her!! 

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Before Jane and I headed over to the airport we stopped at spivey to pick up Read. Jane also filled him in on everything. 

On the way to the airport, I was supper excited to see everyone, but extra excited to see Hannah. When we go to the airport Jane and I were swarmed by everyone! It was VERY overwhelming for me. Jane sensed and Told me just to sit. So I'd did. Stephanie hanged me a card and a little gift from everyone! ( If any of you read this, I love it! You guys are truly the best and I'm so happy I got to meet ya'll!)  Addam gave me an ENP shirt and I feel like others handed me things as well, but I really have no idea. 

  As everyone calmed down I stuck with Jane. Partly because I was feeling really dizzy, partly for a last sense of comfort (I mean she was really the only one there that I felt really knew what was going in with me), and partly because I am really gonna miss her. As everyone started to head in, Kimmi, Aledia, and Isabell came over. They sang, danced and one of them played Ukulele to "their" song for Jane. It was super adorable! Love them! But While listing and watching, it hit me that this is goodbye. It also hit me that Hannah wasn't there. That I hadn't even said bye to her before she left for ENP. That I really wasn't gonna be able to say goodbye. It sucked! 

 Hannah was our (the vet group's) "Mamma Duck". She taught us so much. And she was really funny, and cool. I missed not being around her this past week. Hannah was just as cool as Jane! She also "saved" me! She made the doctor at Chiang Mai Ram give me the fluids I needed. She was also there on Sunday night when I woke up in pain. She also was there to make sure I didn't just eat cookies when I did eat the first 2 days. Lastly she let me help her in a surgery! I'm really  miss you Hannah! And I'm super sad I never got to say bye or Thank you! 

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 So back to the airport. As soon as I got in Jane got me a wheelchair. I'm guessing the day had caught up to me because my legs couldn't stand any longer. Sitting there I looked at the group. I looked over at Addam and then over at Jane. I Looked at everyone else again. Then I caught Jane's eye and had to look away to prevent my self from making a fool of my self and crying. Eventually Jane started to say goodbye to everyone. She gave hugs to people from the vet group, then she said her goodbyes to her group, the plight group, and then to me. As soon as she gave me a hug I lost it. I made a fool of myself and cried. I really didn't want to leave Thailand. I didn't want this trip to come to an end. I didn't want to say goodbye. And I still don't. I don't wanna to go home.  It just all hit me when Jane said goodbye. After a few minutes I regained my "cool". Then it was time to say goodbye to Addam. I didn't feel like a fool for crying when Jane left anymore, because a few people had the same reaction when Addam left. I was sad to say goodbye to Addam too, I mean he is one of the reasons I am on this trip. He is the one who told me that I'd be able to raise the money. It was just a sad hour.  However, it was also very exciting to see EVERYONE but Hannah :( again!! 

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Days 11, 12, 13, & 14

Wednesday- I still wasn't feeling amazing. The pain in my stomach was FINALLY mostly gone. I was extremely tired tho. I had not slept well at all! But i still felt better. I had some yogurt for breakfast. Around 2 Jane and I walked to the mall. I wasn't hungry at all, but Jane MADE me eat some chicken. It was the first time I've had fried chicken in YEARS.   We also went to the food store. There they had REAL tim tams!! The ones that are made in OZ. During our walk to and from the mall and around the mall I really had to stop and rest a bunch of times. But it felt amazing to get out. Amazing to be out. We got back and I rested up a bit...after a nap and shower Jane let us walk to Spicy Thai.  It really cheered me up to see Num!! It was so nice to be back "home"at  Spicy! I love it there! It wasn't the same as when everyone was there. It was actually kinda lonely! But it was cool to be in a "real" hostel setting. With backpackers!! It was fun!! On the way back we stopped at 7eleven and got some drinks. When we got back I crashed while watching friends on Jane's computer.

Thursday- 

Another night of a terrible sleep.  I couldn't get comfy at all. My neck was really bothering me. When I woke up and I finally had some Jello... Well jelio. It was super sticky!  But it did hit the spot.  After a bit Jane and I took a walk. We headed a different way and walked around the moat. For a long time. Again I stopped a lot. With in 20 minutes i was pretty much feeling much not amazing. I was feeling kinda crappy! But I really didn't want to stop walking. We stopped at a food store, where I had some m&m and sat for a bit on the cold store floor with some nice cool air. After a while we countinued to walk. Jane suggested walking back "home"-to the hotel- but i really wanted to keep walking, so we did, but Only about 500 feet in 5 minutes because we reached a 7 eleven and I needed to sit again. So Jane too that time to get me a gatorade. We walked a bit more and then I sat and drank the entire thing. After we crossed the street and i really started to feel shakey, so we took a truck. (Btw Thai streets are NOT easy to cross!)  The truck took us the total wrong way. We got off once Jane saw Spicy. We walked back to our "home" and rather then going back I begged Jane to walk to the mall. Although walking doesn't make me feel better, it deff makes me feel good mentally.  I had some chicken  and we walked back to our home. I was so tired but i thought if I stayed up I would sleep better, so I tried. I think I went to sleep around 930/10. 

Friday-

Again terrible night sleep. I had a killer headache all night. I switched beds with Jane so my bed was cooler and hers was a tad warmer. It helped a bit but still not a normal night sleep. 

I finally got up around noon and took a shower. We were going to walk to this adorable little street that jane took us to last thursday with the vet group. We walked for a while and I did pretty well. I did stop a lot but I felt okay enough. The air was super heavey tho. We went into a little cafe and Jane and I shared a lemonade. It was some prettt darn good lemonade.  After cooling off and resting we countinued to walk and I began getting super tired. I still wanted to walk, but Jane convinced me that we should turn back and readjust our plans. So we stopped at the Mall on the way back. We went to KFC.  I was so out of it by the time I sat down. I took my inhaler as a precaution. I was really feeling crappy. Jane got me some cold meds and we headed back home. 

 When we got back. I took some meds and crashed for about 3 or 4 hours. It was the best sleep I'd had in a long time. When I woke up Jane and I watched the new episode of Law and Order, then we had to leave to pick up two teachers from the airport. Num took us! I again got to sit in the front seat of the truck. It's still so weird to me being on the left side of the front of the car and not be driving. Don't think i'll ever get used to that. Anyways, It was nice to chat with him. He told me when I came home from the hospital and was laying in the floor The way my eyes were acting, made me look drunk. haha! When we got to the airport I was iffy. But I pushed myself a little and didn't tell Jane. We found the teachers and then I sat while we waited for a taxi for the teachers and Jane talked to them. I also chatted with Num for a while longer. 

 When it was time to go, felt very wobbly. Jane picked up on that one. She really hada hold me as I walked back to Num's truck. We dropped the teachers of at their hotel. It looked pretty cool from the outside. Num said it was made by the Chinese. When we got back we watched more law and order.  Once We turned the lights off I fell asleep. 

Saturday-

 Again I had a hard time sleeping. I had a dream that my head was in so much pain. Jane said I wasn't happy in my sleep. Pretty sure I was sleep talking. (Sorry Jane!)

Anyways I woke up with a headache but I was still feeling pretty good. I got up changed and brushed my teeth, as Jane made her daily "To Do List". I was still wobbly, but that was nothing new.  The only "new" thing I was feeling was hungry. I'm pretty sure Jane was more excited about it then I was!! 

We walked over to spicy to pick up the loop phones. I really do live spicy!! I met a backpacker there today. He was nice, but he had a lot of questions. He was from oregon. Next we walked to B2Green the hotel where Jane and Addam and all the teachers are staying Sunday night after us kiddies leave. While walking back we got a little lost. We are not really sure how, so we took a truck to the mall. I got a croissant and yogurt. I have to say it was pretty nice to eat when my body wanted. After we walked back home and I took a 3 hour nap. Now I am just chilln' with Jane.  

(Ps. There may be many spelling, grammar and wrong words  in this post. This is due to my phone not cooperating.)

Day 8, 9, & 10

Well not much to say! 

 

I haven't done anything since the caves on saturday. I've had some serious bed rest time! I'm feeling okay as i write this. It's the best I've felt in 4 days! The sad part is that i still have a sharp pain and a killer headache.. :( 

I'm happy for Katie tho, she is feeling better and went to ENP!  (Tuesday)

Day 6: ARK and another shelter! (Santisook Dog and Cat Foundation)

I  fell asleep on the way to the new shelter.

Today I woke up with a sore throat but I powered through the day! Thank goodness for Jane! She saved me with some cooling things for my throat! one of the reason we love her, she is always prepared!

I wasn't really in the mood to eat because I wasn't feeling well but I made myself eat some yogurt and drink a water. 

Our group at Santisook 

We headed to a new shelter. This one was so different from ARK! I wish I took pictures, but Maddi an Jite did! So i'll post those pictures when I get back to the states! (Ewh the States! I don't wanna go home!) The dogs were so much healthier looking than at ARK. They were split into smaller groups and kept in large pen areas. There seemed to be much less tension between the dogs. Due to them being separated, they were unable to spread their issues as fast. The volunteer there was fabulous. She really cares so much for the pups... And kittens! It was great to see that not all shelters are the same here. However I am really glad we were able to help ARK out. I think we really did make a BIG difference!

Texas and I examine a dog at the new shelter.

Rice Fields

Some houses 

We then went to lunch. I didn't really enjoy it... At all. But I did try it. I wasn't really hungry anyhow.

Our Last Greeting!

We then went to say our final goodbyes at the shelter! (ARK) We took pictures and wrote down some English information about them so ARK could post them on their site or whatever they would like to do with them.  Maddi and I teamed up and got pictures of the dogs by the entrance. We then went off to an area we haven't walked down to get some pictures of those dogs. We walked passed a little hut in a shaded area that a lot of dogs were in. Maddi and I just walked passed it. We had no intentions of going up to the hut. Regardless the dogs were not gonna take that as an answer from us. Suddenly, a BIG black dog came CHARGING at us. At first we ran. Then I stopped us. And we stood still. With that big dog still growling and running at us. For a LONG time. Then a corgi who is usually mean to other dogs came and saved us. Maddi and I couldn't have been happier with her. We have a new appreciation for her.

our last goodbyes!

Afterwards, I cuddled with my boy! God I love him. I can't explain. I love him so much.. Like a foster dog that I would keep. I was planning on taking him home. However Hannah told me the vet didn't have the international  rabies certificate. Which DUCKN' SUCKED!! However, I held it together and grabbed my boy, and we sat and cuddled while the other girls took pictures and said goodbyes.

 Then Jane came over and checked on me.... And I lost my "cool". I lost it! I cried. And I NEVER cry!  But I cried, and I cried in front of Jane! I was trying to explain to her that I hate saying goodbye to my foster babies...That I hate this feeling, that I am stronger than this, that I was fine, and how if Winn Dixie was my foster dog he would be one that  would be a hard one to say goodbye to. She told me he would be okay, that he wasn't going to be killed like in the US. But then I tried explaining how this goodbye wasn't the same. This is simply because Winn Dixie isn't going home. He isn't going to a better place. He won't be going somewhere where his life will get better. He will be staying where he is. He will stay at the shelter. Covered in  fleas covered in ticks, with his long hair that gets matted so easily. With the other dogs who can attack and kill him. In a place where he will have to live with worms. In a place where a health condition may  will go unnoticed and  can cause him to go deaf, blind, and will kill him. I explained how this was the one goodbye I have never had. This was a goodbye where I couldn't kiss him on the head and say, " Your life will get better, you lived through the hard part. Hell is over! You are free, you can live a happy life and eat all you want."  I couldn't do that I had nothing good to tell him other than "You won't be killed directly killed by humans, and there won't be any hell for you because you are already living in it." I just couldn't hold it together. That is all I had on my mind. I lost it and I cried! I cried in front of one of the people who I had only known for a few short days, & I look up to her and see as such a strong and tough person. In front of someone who I wanted to like me for how strong and determined I am. I feel so embarrassed! Ugh! It was made worse when Hannah came by! The other person I looked up to. I gained my cool and lost it again when I opened my mouth to talk to Hannah! It was the worse!
Then the actual time came! The time the time to say my final goodbye. I love him so much!! I'm very very very for lack of better  words heartbroken!! If there was one thing I learned in saying goodbye it's NEVER LOOK BACK!

My tearful goodbye

Trying to hide my tears

i'm gonna miss him so much!

Last tick picking

Last look at ARK

After some tearful goodbyes, well I was the only tearful one, we had to decided what to do that night. Jane gave us three options. 1. Go back to Nimmanhaemin walk around, and eat there. 2. Go back to the hostel and have pasta and hang out. 3. Go to a market walk around and eat there.We got home and decided to go for option number 2 and have Jane made us dinner. (Another reason she reminds me of mamma hen! Haha) We had spaghetti and garlic bread with ice cream. Now we are having a movie night! ;)

Movie Night

 Oh and the other group left for an overnight, this morning but before they left I took a selfie with Stephanie!

Much Later: I lost focus on the TV and started writing in Loop's blog. I also skyped a few people and was chatting with Kat over by the computers and Jane was walking around. My finger had been bothering me since dinner but I thought it was just a bug bite. After a bit Jane came to check her stuff on the computer and Kat started chatting to her about college applications. I then noticed that the pain in my finger was from a splinter. Me being such a baby with splinters freaked out a tad. Jane had me soak my finger then took the splinter out. I then got a really weird thai bandaid and was all better!-the end....

Jane stuck around for a bit and gave some great life advice. And some great advice for college for me. Maddi and Texas joined our conversation as well. It was a nice life advice sess with Jane. The four of us really enjoyed it!  We all look up to Jane and Hannah.