Guilt [gilt]- noun- a feeling of responsibility or remorse for some offense, crime, wrong, etc. whether real
real or imagined: She felt guilt for affiliation.
"Hard though it may be to accept, remember that guilt is sometimes a friendly internal voice reminding you that you're messing up."
Guilt it is a feeling that EVERYONE who is normal will feel at some point rather it is to the extreme of murdering someone or on the small (but still horrible feeling) of hurting someone's feelings. I'd say about 70% of the time guilt is something that is the result of something YOU personally ACCIDENTALLY did. 15% is probably about the amount of guilt felt from doing something then feeling guilty afterwards because you didn't think "it" through or you thought the reaction would be different. Lastly I'd say the last 15% is caused by something you intentionally did, but you don't regret it however you still feel bad (kindly like when you decide to put a dog to sleep).
Most people when feeling guilt will say "I am sorry." However hasn't that lost meaning over the years? It is something that I myself catch myself saying on a regular basis. However what does SORRY mean to you? I've always taken it as "I didn't mean to do that," or "I shouldn't have done that," or "I wasn't thinking when I did that it won't happen again." After saying sorry the subject has always been dropped, however does the feeling really go away after the routine "I'm sorry" is said?? Does the person apologizing stop feeling bad? Does the person who is being apologized to forget this feelings? I think the picture above really brings back meaning into the word "Sorry."I personally relate to this quote because no matter how simple for the subject I typically always have guilt for longer than the moment I admit that "I'm sorry." Sometimes I even feel that I can say sorry all I want, but is that really going to make much of a difference?? Is that going to change what happened? Is that going to make things go back to normal? Is it going to stop the guilt I feel? The regret? The sympathy? Is it going to stop me from feeling bad? Like a horrible person? Like there is absolutely no way that you should forgive me?
NO! A "Sorry" does NOT take away feelings from Either party!
There are other times where I am hyper, crazy, and push people's buttons. You'd think that after enough times of doing this to the same person that I would learn the line, that I would learn when to stop. That I wouldn't cross the line, that I wouldn't keep the punch line going when I know that the person has had enough??? Was I thinking?
Yes, I was thinking, Yes I did think I was crossing the line. WHY did I keep it going??? Honestly I don't know. I wouldn't be able to tell you why. Time and time again I push my limit. Maybe it's because I just want to keep the fun going. Maybe because its the similar fun that we have all the time. Maybe it's because when I laugh I forget about all the bad that is going on around me forgetting that something I know when I'm not laughing is still bothering that person..... and honestly I feel the guilt as soon as I stop laughing. I have pain from worsening that person's pain and the pain of AGAIN letting that person down by not knowing when to stop. I truly feel sorry when I do that and I beat myself up all day and night, and for a while afterwards....It never truly goes away and if something reminds me what I did I'll again feel the guilt as strong as I did originally.
We all have flaws and not one person is perfect however, it doesn't mean we can't work on what we are bad at. I've been working on this problem. I've been trying my best but sometimes my best is failing. I know that's part of the learning processes but I get mad that I do it every time.
Tonight this post had to do with an incident that happened today, and honestly I am not so sure that person will even ever see this post. However if they do I want them to know that I am sorry. I am trying hard to work on this. No, I'm not going to blame it on being one of my flaws---There is nothing to blame it on, it was just me being a bad friend. I feel horrible and I know you need time to breathe, study, and take care of what needs to be taken care of, but know that I do LOVE you and you are truly one of my BEST friends in this crazy world we live in. Though I suck at times, though I give harsh advise, though I annoy the crap out of you, am a pain in your ass, make no sense at time, want to know everything, I love you and I never mean to hurt you. I never want to hurt you and I feel so sick not only because I pushed you and hurt you but because I know before that that you are having it rough. I felt bad before this even happened just because I knew you were upset before hand. I am sorry. Accept it or not I don't care because I will have the guilt no matter what and you will feel the pain no matter what....but I still love you!
And to everyone else: Think about it...Are you sorry when you say sorry? What does it mean to you???
