Procrastinating!

I have to admit I should be studying for an Exam tomorrow that I haven't even started studying for, however I really feel the need to use this time to blog.

This doesn't have anything to do with my post, but I like it!

If you read my post back in September about my first week or so at Becker you may be wondering how I am doing my during my first few weeks back for my second Semester. (actually, honestly you probably do not care what so ever but let's pretend.)
 
    Well, the truth is I've changed. I have noticed heaps of changes in myself since coming back for my second semester. I feel like a part of me changed while being in Australia. I feel more confident in myself and what I do. I have seen myself become a little bit more outgoing. I have also seen myself be selfish and do things for my self rather than waiting around for other people.  I have also seen myself "live".
  I'll be the first to admit I am a people pleaser. I like to make everyone happy and keep them happy, even if it means not letting myself be happy. After separating from Elizabeth for a week in Australia to do things for myself, I've learned that now is the time in my life to make myself happy and to do things for myself. -No this doesn't mean I wont care about others or stop feeling bad when I've done something wrong.- My new Years Resolution is to do the things that I wanna do, not because someone else is doing them. Of course when given the opportunity to I'll do the things that people don't wanna do but end up loving.

  I've seen my self become more outgoing since being back at school as well. I think it has something to do with the French mate at the Hostel. Who told me "don't be quiet, but don't not be yourself, talk to people, but make sure to listen as well, don't hold back, but don't do anything to kill yourself. If you sit and take everything in, you wont have fun, if you put yourself out of your comfort zone, you'll make good mates. Everyone else is in the same boat, or has been, there is no judgement here. We are all the same, and where we are different, that is what makes us backpackers connect." Well, I took his advice and I made lots of new mates, and buds. And now being back at Becker I have applied it to my peers. I am still shy, and quiet but I'm really trying to engage in conversations and be that outgoing person who people know I am once they know me.

Lastly since being back I've really created some strong bonds with people at school. There are some friends from first semester that I feel a bit distanced from, but there are heaps that I've grown closer to. Over the last 2 weeks I've been a dash under the healthy bar. I've had a cough and chest pains (lungs). The health center ended up sending me to the ER. (Yes, seriously a cough, I really was't given a choice, LAST time I go there when I'm sick!) Nicole and Marissa came with me and thanks to Marissa I didn't have to go through Becker for transportation, and thanks to Nicole, I wasn't alone. And every day since I told one person I about the pain in my chest she has checked on me everyday. The friends I've made over the last few months have been extremely amazing and I'm thankful for them all, even if I did end up getting two of them sick. (although the only symptom I have that they do is a cough, so maybe they are just sick, because I was told I wasn't contagious.)